Letter to myself.

Dear Kate,
You need to get your act together, you're losing out on some great friends. Why is it you feel the need to push everything away when something bad happens. You NEED to learn to trust better. Your actions are hurting everyone and that is the last thing that you want to do. You think you're helping it but you're not. Please stop running. You know they just want to help. Running doesn't do anything. It clears your head but find another way. People never know if your going to jump off a swing or just sit. Grow up. You are being so selfish. Haven't they proven to you enough that they aren't going to leave??? They have proven to be leaches. Why can't they ever measure up? They are the BEST friends you have EVER had in your ENTIRE life. They haven't left you yet. I know your not used to it but give change a chance. You're a fighter. You're better than this. They deserve better than you. Become who they first met.

Kate