What happened to me.
What the HECK.
I want to laugh and be silly AGAIN.
I just keep making people FREAKING upset.
Which makes me angry. Because I am TRYING.
I DON'T know how to explain how I'm feeling to myself.
I CAN'T very well explain it to others.
I'm TRYING to be happy. I WAS happy.
I know I CAN be happy again.
But it can't happen OVERNIGHT. It DOESN'T happen overnight.
I keep trying to be myself but so much other CRAP is going down.
Everyone can CHILL because I mean it when I say I am FINE.
I'm not going to do anything STUPID.
Please STOP over analyzing EVERYTHING.
I am a big girl. I'd rather be worrying about one of YOU anyway.
Because right now I feel like a SELFISH BRAT.
I HATE people that act LIKE I'm ACTING.
It's NOT okay in my book. I am not being a good FRIEND.
FRIENDSHIP is a two sided thing. It should be DIRECTLY with the other person.
FACE TO FACE.
Please just tell me if something is WRONG.
Your problems mean MORE TO ME than mine.
I LOVE YOU GUYS. Thanks so much for being there for me in my time of need.
But it's time I'm there for someone else.

ps. please don't over analyze this. Just to clarify I'm just trying to #1 vent, #2 make a point and #3 explain how I feel because I'm not very good at in with talking.