This is the life I lead.

I live by someone else's standards. But I refuse to give up my own.
I walk a rocky path. But it is dull and smooth.
Alone and yet never alone. Lonely and always surrounded.
Feeling like I have two lives. Feeling like one was a dream.
Doubting who I am. Knowing what I stand for.
Waiting for the Fall. Waiting for the Winter. Waiting for the Spring.
Always Waiting.
Feeling insecure. Mistaken for over confident.
Not happy. Not sad. Not content.
I have control over everything in my life. I have no control of anything.
Wants to love someone. Doesn't want to love someone who already loves.

"If you want me leave me. Electric Chapel"-Lady Gaga