I don't want to be here.
I don't want to be anywhere.
I'm only staying somewhere for others...
not even myself. Pathetic yeah?

I'm really upset you're leaving. I know you have to but I don't want you to. I love you. I want you to always be there for me. I want to be strange with you. You're my best friend. You're someone I can honestly say I don't know if I can live without. I think you're the only person I've ever said that about. Perhaps I'm being cheesy. Okay I know I'm being cheesy but...

Oh what does it matter. What matters at all anyway. Nothing. I'll find a way to move on.

Wow I didnt think it was possible to hate someone as much as I hate you.

Boys confuse me to high heaven.

Always chosen over. Never picked first. I want someone to want me. Not my roommate or my friends. It's always been this way.

Tired of sloppy seconds.

Brick walls. Cannon balls. Endlessness to the abis. Clasping to a rod. Blood pulsing. Pain. Wanting. Wishing. Feeling. Tears. Hurt. Anguish. Unconditional love.